Hi, I don't know where else to turn to. Afew days ago I was in the shower and was doing a breast exam only to find a small lump. I called the gp, they had me in very quickly (very grateful because i know others who have had to wait weeks/months to see a gp)
I was given an appointment this morning where the doctor gave me a breast exam. When it was over, she left the room (foundation doctor) to go and speak to another doctor. I heard them talking for a good while, but did not hear what they were saying. A while later she came back in and said she has found a large lump and due to its size, I need to be referred to the breast clinic. My left breast is slightly larger than the right. I have gained a significant amount of weight over the last couple of years, my breast size has also increased. I'm not used to having big breasts, so this is new to me.
Is all hope lost ? I'm crumbling mentally. It can be a couple of weeks before I am seen at the breast clinic.
I was surprisingly fine when she told me what she had found and was absolutely fine on my way out the gp practice.
While driving home I began to think dark thoughts "if its as big as the doctor says that means it's stage 4!" "I wonder how long I have left, will it be weeks? Months? It has probably spread everywhere"
I have young children, cancer doesn't care who you are or how old your children are. I work in palliative care....so this is all getting to me. I'm trying to distract myself. I have moments where I tell myself to shut up because nothing is confirmed yet, but I think it's human nature to assume a lump in the breast is never a good sign :(
Sorry for my rant. Has anyone been through something similar? And did you spiral in what I could only describe as mental torture. Life was normal last week.