Hi all,
First of all, I have extremely bad anxiety around anything gynaecological. I have a history of SA and I have had some medical trauma that has been mentally hard to live with. I do not attend cervical smear appointments because of this and so I am hoping for some advice, or at least some kindness.
I am 42 and am fairly certain that I’m perimenopausal. My symptoms are in line with what I read about, nothing that I can’t quite cope with at the moment, but I have a fairly high tolerance to things so I can avoid the GP. However towards the end of my 2nd period last month (I’ve had a period every fortnight for the past 3 years), I found it difficult to insert a tampon. I had a quick check of things and felt what I thought was a lump, or bulge not too far from the opening. I’m not in the habit of looking or checking downstairs regularly to be honest, so I’m not entirely sure what would be ‘normal’. From what I can see there is a light pink lump just inside my vagina at the top. Since checking, I have felt like there is an air bubble stuck down there. No pain, not really discomfort, no heavy dragging feeling but I’m hyper aware that something isn’t quite right. Things feel a bit slack all of a sudden. I’ve frantically downloaded the Squeezy app to see if that might help, but I have an awful feeling this might be a prolapse.
As you can imagine, I’m horrified by the thought of this, and I just don’t know what to do. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this, I feel so much shame. The thought of being exposed and poked and prodded makes me panic. I’m stuck reliving my past experiences with doctors, and I don’t know how to move forward.
Sorry for the long post. Thanks for getting this far xx