Hi all, looking for some advice and just need to let my feelings out as I’m very anxious right now (I suffer with mental health) could do with a bit of reassurance and positivity.
Im 24 and went to the doctors today regarding my periods…for the last 3 months my periods have been late, extreme stabbing pain in my tummy and vaginal area to the point I can’t eat, feeling sick and lightning crotch. These symptoms last the day before and first day of my period and are unusual for me. After seeing the doctor they said I need blood tests and an ultrasound but it sounds like it could be endometriosis. I went home and cried and now feel so numb and scared that I may have it even though it’s not confirmed till tests are done my anxiety is working over time right now.
I haven’t had any trouble conceiving in the past as I have a 4 year old who was conceived in 3 months and I also fell pregnant again last year which again happened in 3 months however I had an abortion as it wasn’t the right time for me…surely the endometriosis wouldn’t appear out of nowhere it would’ve been there underlying for a while and would’ve effected my fertility, yet I’ve become pregnant twice fairly easily…but maybe that’s just me trying to reassure myself? I don’t think abortions can cause endometriosis correct me if I’m wrong however if I do have it then I feel like I’m being punished for having that abortion as the painful periods started about 4/5 months after my abortion, which I now regret having and I can’t help but think if I do have endometriosis then I should’ve kept that baby as my fertility may decrease and I may not get another chance. I took a pill for my abortion but there was still tissue remaining so I had to take the pill again and didn’t have a check up to make sure it was all gone as they said it’ll go on its own so maybe there’s still tissue remaining? Might be pulling at straws right now but just trying to reassure myself and think of other possibilities it may be as I’m scared 😩
I know I shouldn’t worry yet as I’ve not had any tests or a diagnosis but I haven’t had much luck in life and I have an awful gut feeling it’ll be endometriosis and I’m honestly so scared I think I’ll really struggle mentally. I’m really hoping it’s something else and my heart goes out to anyone who has endometriosis because even though it’s still possible to conceive it sounds really difficult to come to terms with got to wait till I have my tests done but the suspense is draining me, I’ve always wanted a large family and the thought of me not being able to have that hurts so bad, I really wish I never had that abortion now, tonight’s gonna be a long night feel like I’m gonna cry my eyes out 😭