My cycle is hellish for my mental health post baby - the ups and downs are extremely difficult to manage and for half of the month I struggle... Up until now I've managed it with the pill but we want to start trying for another baby so I am now back to the cycle. For all of my 20's I was on contraception and never had an issue with my mood or ability to cope and now I am just struggling.
When I'm balanced I'm happy, content and productive.. it just feels deeply unfair that I don't get to be that person for half the month. And yes of course it will be worth it to expand our family but it just feels so so hard right now.
I spoke with my gp and was offered sertraline - having used it before this feels like a sledgehammer approach.
I know this will end soon but the damage to my marriage will need repairing - we're a good team most of the time but obviously in any marriage things aren't always easy.
I've had a horrendous day where I've not managed with my husband who is mostly supportive but has his own things to deal with and have mostly swung from intense fury to floods of tears. I'm trying so hard and it just keeps failing. I feel like I've lost the plot a bit...
I don't want to be on my own but we have a little one to look after and its not her problem so the default ends up being me on my own while he hangs out with her..
To not dripfeed - We've a lot on our plate at the moment so it's extra hard - biggest one is my little girl starting preschool next week for two mornings... she's going to fly there but its not going to be easy and shes been with us up until now.
So - practical things....How do you work with your cycle to not fall down the despair hole? - what practical things from your partner help? anyone want to just have a big cry with me?
I've had very little practice at this and faced with it in my 30s just feels like I should be able to handle it now...