Hi,
TW:suicide
1st ever post, long time reader.
I’m 34, 14 yr old DD. I had her very young, surprise baby when I was on the pill. After she was born I went straight to the mirena coil, had this continuously until July this year when me and DP decided to try for a baby. All these years, no periods or negative side effects at all, bliss.
Coil removed in July, first month fine, period came back right on time etc. Then mirena crash, BIG TIME. This was horrendous, horrible bloating, feeling sick, light headed, couldn’t sleep, terrible anxiety, anger, couldn’t concentrate, gave up my hobbies, lost appetite, mood swings, tearful, couldn’t get out of bed some days. Tried everything to pull myself together, as did DP, he had no idea what to do, nothing worked.
Then one day, I snapped and had crashing suicidal feelings, this low, dark mood lasted about 2 weeks getting increasingly worse until I decided to try and end my life. It was beyond awful, I have never felt so terrible, nothing mattered. Luckily, I was unsuccessful but was taken to hospital.
DP and I had a serious chat and decided we would no longer try for a baby it wasn’t worth how I felt. Had the coil reinserted in October.
I feel 100x better but still have odd days where I feel tearful and very dark.
What on earth happened to me!? Why are we not told about this?! And will I go mad again come the menopause!? I am so worried as is DP as he was so shocked and scared by what I was like.