This evening I decided to do a bit more... intensive hair removal than normal and ended up squatting over a mirror so I could see what I was doing.
I realised that at that angle I can very clearly see the tip of my cervix just sitting there at the entrance to my vagina. I can push it back with my fingers but it falls down again straight away.
I'm devastated. I'm only 39. I've had 2 vaginal births, normal weight babies, the youngest is almost 2. It's completely my fault; I probably do pelvic floor exercises twice a month. But I don't have any incontinence or sensation of heaviness, so I naively thought everything was OK.
Obviously I'll book a GP appointment on Monday but until then I'm terrified I'll need a hysterectomy and end up in early menopause. Or need all sorts of pessaries and meshes that may or may not work. If I don't do anything will it just keep falling out?
Has anyone else had this and can tell me what the process looks like from here?
DH and I haven't had sex for 13 months (a whole nother thread) and I was already feeling so unattractive and unfeminine, this has really upset me.
I'd be so grateful for anyone else's experience or encouragement.