I'm 48.
Periods have always been like clockwork until the past two months, when I have had nothing. (I realise this doesn't mean anything, and they are likely to come back with a vengeance at some point!)
I am however, experiencing what feels like PMS, but on a whole new level.
I have always suffered low mood and anxiety leading up to periods, but not like this.
The best way I can describe it is being overcome by overwhelming sadness.
I just feel like I want to cry all the time, and when I do, it as though the tears will never stop. (I do have a lot going on in my life).
I am also getting the cramps I would normally get with a period, but no sign of one starting.
I am on the waiting list for grief counselling, and trying to avoid antidepressants.
(I've been offered them, but always been too scared to take them).
It's such a strange and uneasy feeling, as my cycle has always been so regular.
I know my mum was a couple of years younger than I am now when she went through menopause, so that's something to consider.
I also remember her feeling very depressed around that time.
I am trying to build up to making an appointment with a female GP.
I just don't feel myself at all.