As per title I went for a mammogram with action cancer a couple of weeks ago, (I'm not working so seemed like a good time to do it-had a couple of twinges in breast in recent months but couldn't feel any lumps & nothing bad). Got a letter a few days ago saying I need to go for further scans.
It says 3/4 women going for further investigations don't have cancer but I'm already catastrophising & have myself dead in the next couple of months. In the last couple of days I've had a sort of hot pain in my right breast that's concerning.
It's been a rough couple of years for me, having lost both my parents (1 from a brain tumour out of the blue where she was given 3 months & the other a massive bleed on the brain) & I would really like a drama free year or so. I'm very overweight & drink too much - have been better in the last month & trying to be healthier but I'm not great. Have told dh I'm not expecting good news from this but haven't mentioned it to anyone else. Don't want to go on about it to him but my head is spiralling down the road.
I've started to do a short morning meditation which is maybe helping but think I just need to get a bit more zen.