I don't know what's happened to me. I can't find joy in anything, I just feel pissed off and enraged and exhausted. I ruin things that should be nice for myself because I feel like this even as good things are happening. It's like I look for reasons to be angry and upset instead of emphasising what's good. This will sound crazy but I went through a phase where I coped pretty well with the stress of life (work full time, small kids, no help). But then I started to worry about the future and I feel everything is tainted by that. Like there are only bad things to come. I'm middle aged so at that stage in life where parents are getting older, the world is a mess etc. But the rage and tears and frustration feel overwhelming and take over everything. All the time! I feel a bit better when I get time to myself but it doesn't take long for me to reset into a snappy old cow again. I feel so cold. I am being a rubbish mum, a rubbish wife. I just feel like all the joy and niceness has poured out of me. I feel like I'm too young for meno (42?) Can everyday stress do this to you?