Horrific and crippling PMT

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Hi all, I'm hoping I'm not alone in this.

I've always struggled with PMT, I'd feel a bit low and I'll be sad for about 3 days, and then my period arrives. However my PMT has worsened and I'm concerned.

For a bit of background, I'm 37 and I've always had heavy periods. In 2021, I had a stillbirth and shortly after my Papa died. I'm an ITU nurse working in COVID. So hopefully that can give you guys a clue of what my mental health is like!!! I I've had a lot of therapy and 3 out of 4 weeks of the month I am absolutely fine. I gave birth in March to a healthy baby girl. However the week before my period... I am depressed. I feel like I'm transported back to 2021 when I lost my daughter. Then I think about my Papa. Then I get in a cycle and I'm awful, moody and snappy to be around. Nothing makes me feel good... until my period arrives and I'm back to normal me.

Is anyone like this? Is this level of PMT normal after having a baby? I'm on no birth control as I had my tubes tied.

Maybe my story helps?
i have some pmt before 1 DC was both. Then post natal depression- took anti depressants.
Came off them. PMT came back with a vengeance. For two weeks it felt like a was depressed again.
I did a programme called https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maryon_Stewart
It took three months of following the programme . But totally got rid of the PMT.
Basically the baby takes what it needs you when you’re pregnant and when breastfeeding. If you have nutritional deficiencies this affects hormones and causes the horrible PMT.
My doctor offered me anti depressants. But I knew I wasn’t depressed.