Just fucked off and need a vent if I'm honest. Not really expecting help but thanks for taking the time to read if you do.
For years, I've experienced diarrhoea as part of anxiety attacks. It's a vicious cycle. I'm anxious about attending big events in case I'm I'll or need the toilet, which in turn, gives me diarrhoea.
A therapist once told me if was my cavewoman brains response. A rush of adrenaline makes my brain think we're under aft back from a t-Rex so it makes my body physically lighter by evacuating the bowel so we can get away faster. Not much use to me these days!
I've been to the doctors and tried various anti anxiety medication over the years, CBT, breath work etc. I went to the doctor once and told him I'm trying to manage it by taking anti diarrhoea medication before big events as a precaution but surely I can't do this forever. He literally just shrugged his shoulders and said he couldn't see why not. Super helpful.
Once a month, in the run up to my period and during the week itself, anything I eat will go straight through me. Whether it's plain, spicy, greasy, healthy etc I've had it. I really have. I can't enjoy anything, I need to be near a toilet near constantly because if it's not my period, it's my anxiety.
I've been tested for crohns, not that. Not a coeliac either.
Feel constantly fobbed off.
Constantly tired and bloated.
Just fuck being a woman sometimes!!!!!!