So I missed my 12-week scan as I thought I was being clever trying to hold out until I could find out the gender but then around week 14 I had really bad pains it almost felt like constipation but then it got so much worse because when I called 111 they had the gp call me back but I mentioned to them the week before I started bleeding and they said it was normal but afterwards about a week or two later I was in bed and it woke me up the pain it almost felt like constipation or almost like diarrhoea pain and after I called them an hour later a gp called me back and said it can be normal. but after that about five minutes later I had a massive gush to me it felt like a big gush and clot but apparently it wasn't anything to do with pregnancy so the next day they called me back basically five hours later I went back in a scan after they had confirmed they thought I was still pregnant(the night before without a scan) but apparently while actually when I saw the scan myself there was a placenta and a feeding sac but no baby. 14-week scan a long story short I was offered the surgery or pessaries but the way they tell you I took the pessary as they make out surgery is unnecessary within an hour and a half I lost three and a half litres of blood and almost died got blue lighted into hospital straight into an assessment room given morphine (which I have never had anything stronger than 30mg codeine) I was waiting passing nig clots passing out the nurse and my mom held. my hand while the gyno Dr was cutting away the clots and pulling on my insides I couldn't take anymore so the gyno Dr rushed me to the theatre they Saved My Life but that two days later they sent me home also I had an iron transfusion because my blood count was at 74 apparently when it gets to 70 it should be a blood transfusion my mum also works at the
same hospital but a different Ward when she spoke to the doctor's they were annoyed the idea not get the blood transfusion to start with but also during the blood loss my blood pressure dropped to 70 and I was in an out of consciousness and they made me sign a form to consent to a blood transfusion if needed I went back in the next day because of severe headaches and then when I went back in the people i&a recognised me within a few hours I was being treated I was on iv drip also a blood transfusion was given because when I was there they tested my blood count and it had dropped to 66 the only reason I went back in was due to severe migraines I took ibuprofen and cocodamol 30|500 and I was still crying in pain, the reason why I am sharing my story, it's because I still think about it constantly after 12 weeks you think everything is safe after 12/weeks I know I am lucky in comparison to.some other mothers who have miscarried later on or had to give birth and I cannot imagine how u felt with what I felt at 14 weeks. But I do feel like it is something women need to talk about more it's nothing to be ashamed of I felt like my body failed me and ill never forget like a lot of mums the date of miscarriage and the delivery due date it has had a massive mental health impact more than I originally thought. But to every lady that has even if you cannot relate to my story, whether you want to be grieving alone or in a group, every pregnancy at every stage or week is valid and your feelings are normal ❤️