I wasn't sure where to post this so please correct me if this is in the wrong place.
I'm in a bit of a rut at the moment with my body image.
I'm 31. Mum to a 3 year old and an almost 4 month old. Always been in decent shape, always felt good about my body and have been able to lose weight and tone up fairly quickly. Was really into the gym before I got married and had kids but still carried on working out even afterwards.
After DS1, I lost a lot of weight again and just before falling pregnant with DS2, I was at my slimmest I had been in a long time.
Now I'm almost 4 months post partum again and I'm the heaviest and biggest I have ever been.
I have had two c sections and now have the biggest pouch and loose skin hanging over my scar.
The rational side of me says "stop putting so much pressure on yourself, you've just had a baby!!!". But then on the flip side, I've lost all sense of body confidence. It's impacting on my sex life with DH because I am sooo self conscious about my jiggly body, particularly my stomach.
I am on a journey of being more active again and eating better, workouts a few times a week. But where I used to see subtle changes quite quickly, nothing seems to budge right now.
Just feeling pretty low and would love to love my body again instead of feeling embarrassed by it. I know I shouldn't. I should love my body and love the fact that it carried and birthed two beautiful children but I'm struggling to focus on that right now.