This is no life

[Pojji]

Suffering with horrendous periods. I'm not over exaggerating when I say I think I've probably lost a pint of blood in the last 3-4 days..... maybe more. The blood is pouring out of me.
Yesterday I bled onto my chair at work. I felt completely humiliated.
My iron and iron store numbers are in my boots. I've absolutely nothing left. My Gp did a test before Christmas and my levels were 7. I'd guess they're significantly worse after this bleed.

My gp has recomended the mirena coil so I'm trying to get one fitted but my surgery only has one clinic a month so I'm waiting....Feb is full.

Asked for an iron infusion because I'm on the floor but that was met with maybe.....its apparently not standard procedure. I can't tolerate most oral forms of iron due to another health condition which I manage really well through diet (no red meat, dairy and other things) so I've avoided a flare up for over 2 years now.

Woken up in pain for day 5 of my period once again in a pool of blood despite nappy sized pads. I feel like absolute shit and need to summon up the energy to shower away the grossness of it all and go to work. I feel dirty. I am shattered despite 9 hours sleep.

I came home from work last night, fed my kids and went to bed with the baby.

I'm not sure what I want.....I am just so totally and utterly done with feeling like this. Trying to function, parent my kids, run a house, work.....I've nothing left in me to even get out of bed this morning. I'm so tired. I'm depressed. I have no quality of life what so ever. Tuesday the bleeding was so bad I couldn't leave the house. I just had to sit on a towel and try and get through the day.

I honestly don't know how I'm going to make it through the day and I have a schedule of meetings that I can't miss at work.

Not sure what the point of my post is, I'm just completely fed up.....beyond fed up. Just needed to get it out.

@Pojji

I was induced and had no break in my contractions. It's really helped me to hear you had that experience and I gave birth over 20 years ago!

@tothelefttotheleft I am glad I am not alone but also sorry you had to go through it too. I actually feel quite angry about it now. I was screaming and begging for an epidural but because I was having one contraction after another with no rest it was not possible, I couldn't have even moved into the position for them to do it, let alone stayed still. At one point I told them to make the noise stop and they had to tell me the noise was me- I sounded like a dinosaur and I felt so sorry for any poor women entering the birth centre whilst I was there as it must of sounded horrific. It was the most appalling thing I have ever been through- my partner had to go in the loo and cry at one point because it was so overwhelming for him to stand and watch me screaming.

My coil fitting is now booked for the end of the month. I am pooping my pants!

Just another update. I had my infusion a week ago and I can not begin to tell you the difference it has made. I am sleeping better, I wake up refreshed and ready for the day instead of gritting my teeth to get out of bed. I've found my daily chores easier to keep on top of and my brain fog is massively reduced and I've been able to do my job properly. I still get a bit tired in the afternoons but I can cope with that.

I'm guessing this is what normal feels like. I've felt so awful for so long that I can't remember ever feeling like this. This morning I was looking forward to getting up and being able to deep clean my kitchen without it putting me in bed for days!

It's so weird! Im going to focus on getting back on top of my house and then I'm going to use my new found energy to take better care of myself. Lose some weight. Start walking every day and maybe join a group for exercise!

I'm so glad you got that, OP. And yes, use your new found energy to benefit yourself. Don't blame your decline in health on yourself though- it's hard to stay fit and active when you're in poor health!

I'm guessing this is what normal feels like. I've felt so awful for so long that I can't remember ever feeling like this

Its weird isn't it. I didn't realise people usually felt like that all the time and didn't dread trying to get up in the morning let alone get through the day. I guess, like you, I was so used to feeling how I was, it was my normal.