Eating disorders

[helpme1h]

I suffer badly with depression and anxiety all my life, spent long periods unable to get out of bed. I got in the habit of eating crisps chocolate etc just to not have to move to cook to get up. Now I havent eaten normal food in over 20 years, I never liked it much to begin with, but now i,m trapped in this hell letting my body slowly die, i weigh 16 stone, am 5'4, junk is my only comfort, nothing brings me joy, i dont know how to stop, someone please help me 😥

I just read your message and I felt you deserve a reply. I too suffer from v disorganised eating and it has effected me since I was 11 and I am almost 40 now. I can eat well Mon-Thurs and then explode acting like a complete pig for the other 3 days. I then feel so mad at myself, physically sick and eat myself stupid Sunday eve in prep for ‘starting again Monday’.

i have made huge improvements since sep1st this year and I hope I can stay on this good path. I have chocolate nutty cereal bar and
sweet coffee for breakie every morning. Not healthy I know but gives me the sugar hit. I’m having low carb bread sambo with ham coldslaw cheese salad egg, as much filling as I can fit on it for lunch and it’s dinner for me that I need to watch myself. I might just go for another sambo like lunch or else burger with no sides, chicken Caesar salad or try and eat sensible portion of what the rest of family are eating. I know my diet is lacking veg and fruit and I’m not suggesting anyone follows my sad path. I’m only suggesting that it has worked for me. I’ve had the most steady 2 months of my life when it comes to my diet. I’ve lost 8lbs and I don’t feel like I want to binge(mostly) every day every meal I eat what I want and crave, just v little of it. When I know there’s more coming at the next meal I don’t feel like overdoing it.
Maybe it’s worth a try. Eat your junk but try and control how much and when.

i am lucky I enjoy walking and jogging and this has done wonders for my mental health. I can be so mean to myself and say horrible horrible things to myself but I do find exercise helps me