Hi,
I have anxiety generally in day to day life and especially I hate any thing that is put into my.. (ahem). This has become even worse with dryness. Me and H do have sex but not quite often (and we are both ok with it).
Last year I went to a pelvic test and I figured that I have started to dread the speculum even more than I already did. I avoid smear tests solely because of it. I was told my Copper T has been displaced a lot and I needed to get a new one.
Its been 5 months and I did nothing about it because I don't want to go that 'route' again. Now I have started having pink discharge mid-cycle. This has overwhelmed me with anxiety that I might have cervical cancer. I have to see the GP but I am scared so much about their examination :(. Last time I got all stiff and the poor doctor had to treat me like a 10yr old and somehow she finished the examination quickly because no amount of diversion helped me loosen up. She was in disbelief that I am 40yrs old and have two kids but terrified of speculum. I had my two via caesarian , thank god!
I felt bad for her and me. I keep thinking what if I have this cancer and I have to take these tests numerous times.
My question and request:
Please can anyone say some tips not to 'screw up' my up coming pelvic exam?. I am terrified of it. Any one with anxiety, how did you ease up?