I’ve always suffered with my periods.
Agonising pain as a teenager which left me vomiting every month. Very irregular which gave me anxiety as I never knew when they would hit and would be worried about being away from home. I then went on the pill which really helped as I knew when to expect them and they were far less painful. Except I then ended up on antidepressants, and being a teen I didn’t know about the link between mental health troubles and hormonal contraceptives.
Fast forward to my early / mid twenties I came off the pill as I became aware that hormonal contraceptives (particularly the pill) can have massive side effects. Cue me stopping antidepressants a few months later and not needing them since.
My periods were then ok for a while. Still not totally regular and some pain but able to deal with it all better, being an adult. Except they kept getting worse and worse over the course of a couple of years. I felt pretty helpless as I was sure I’d get told to go back on the pill as it had ‘worked’ previously. Went to the GP in desperation, queried endo but was told my periods weren’t heavy enough and given a prescription for the pill.
Fell pregnant the month after. Pregnancy and breastfeeding left me period free for just over 18 months but they returned recently.
Now on my third pp period. They are so much heavier (soaking a tampon every couple of hours for 2-3 days) but luckily not as painful. I’m still requiring pain relief though and I’d always been worried I had a low pain threshold. No, a 27 hour drug-free labour proved that
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I’m so wiped though. I’m still breastfeeding, I suffer from low blood pressure as it is. The baby had just started sleeping better (hence the return in my periods) and now I’m up multiple times a night changing my tampon, albeit only a couple of nights a month.
I’m so down about it. My periods control my life. The pill (I tried a couple) wrecks my mental health. I can’t have anything in situ (coil) as I have a bicornuate uterus. I was talking to my husband the other day, wondering if you can have an elective hysterectomy privately. It seems unlikely but the thought of living like this for the next 30 years fills me with utter dread.
Not really sure what I’m after but needed to get my feelings down.