I am meant to be having a surgical abortion tomorrow & I can't work out if I'm
Doing the right thing.
I'm 9 weeks pregnant & in my late twenties. I have been with my partner for four years.
We thought we wanted a baby but when the reality dawned it really shocked us. I have spent the last few weeks feeling incredibly conflicted, changing my mind. Financially we can afford a child. But selfishly I don't know if I am ready. But I don't want to regret this decision for the rest of my life. We have been & spoken to my doctor together who was very supportive. My partner has been incredibly supportive too, saying he will support either way. I feel so guilty thinking of all the people who can't have children, or try for years. I think how apart from being tired, this pregnancy hasn't made me feel sick or any other side effects. I wonder if there is something wrong with me for on paper having a seemingly 'perfect set up' for a child yet we are both still unsure. I know I do
Want children one day, at least I think I do.
I feel guilty and alarmed because when I've googled how I feel, nothing comes up. The people who bravely share their stories on the net who have abortions are in rocky relationships, too young, already have children or financially unsure. I know that may just be google & I'm sure it's not the real representation of all people.
Any help or wise words would be very much appreciated. Thank you so much.