Hello,
I kinda feel like an intruder cus I don’t have children, and I can’t have them even if I wanted to. But in my last few months of desperately trying to google ways to stop my pain I always end up on here and always seem to find good advice. So I’m going out on a limb here.
Backstory is, got periods at 9, they stopped by 13- due to being in a... let’s say questionable household I didn’t say a thing. Completely silent about it, for two years. After things had changed and it felt safer I told my Mum and thus began a long LONG story of Doctor after doctor, specialist after specialist. And finally, just on the cusp of sixth form, I got diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure.
They put me on elleste duet conti 2mg for a while, my periods came back with a vengeance, sure they’d always been painful but this was awful. I went I got my mess changed to elleste duet (minus conti) 2mg.
I’m now 22, 23 next month. I’ve had an ambulanced phone for me once by a friend who was convinced I was dying, I throw up, convulse, cry out, sound like I’m in labour. I can’t help but be resentful, according to the specialist I now have to see twice a year for the forseeable future children won’t ever be an option for me, going off my meds will wreck my health. Yet I have to be in this much pain monthly.
At the moment I take those trans-acid things and codine, to little avail. Here I am, on a Sunday i wanted to spend with my boyfriend, shaking to type, bucket at the side of my bed, heat packs on in this weather. Completely and utterly disillusioned. I can’t cope with this anymore, I really can’t.
What should I do? Any tips, any recommendedations? Shall I asked for a Endometrial ablation? I want too, but since these painful periods are literally only a result of medication, forcing my body to believe its doing what it’s supposed to, will that work for me?? Can I just get a hysterectomy? A coil? Something. If I can’t have children anyway, can I at least have a way to not be in debilitating pain that effects my career and life every month?
Sorry, I’m emotional right now. It’s childish but I feel like this is so unfair.
TL;DR in a lot of pain, my meds give me painful periods, I’m at the end of my rope; will do anything to stop this