This one is very much a story of consequences, and the effects a rape has on a family, especially in a situation like this, where the complications are so much more severe. And, dear lord, the attack scene made me cringe so bad. Rape scenes are bad enough, but considering the mechanics of this one, and the anatomical difficulties horrible.
And it's worse because of the guilt max feels afterward, like maybe he was leading the attacker on, unknowingly. Having been treated like a boy his whole life, and identifying as a boy, he never had to learn the perils of teenage girl-sexuality. With his numerous make-out partners, he was never the initiator, and he let things happen without having to exert any effort. And the attack was similar. Like many victims, he froze and afterwards, he blamed himself and it's just freaking gutting.
The story is told in a multi-narrative format, where voice and perspective are given to max, both of his parents, his brother, one of his doctors, and a girl who may be the best thing to ever happened to max. But it's everything - it's the struggles of parents between trying to protect their children but still allowing them autonomy, and the many mistakes that can occur along that path. It's about love and fear and self-perception. It's about the narrowing of options and the fear of being left behind. It's about secrets being kept and the sense that everyone knows these secrets but you.
And it's just powerful stuff, all around. I definitely recommend it for anyone interested in gender and identity, or just a story about an unusual situation and the way it crashes through a family and what is left at the end.