I am the type of person who has always been big.
I had some photos taken of me in Nov and they looked ok. I saw a photo that was taken today and it has pretty much smacked my in the face.
I am a mess, i am actually disgucsted at myself. I am aware i eat like a bloody pig and yet i have still let it get to this stage.
I have jsut been for a long jog/power walk to stamp all my frustration at myself out and i am going to rejoin Slimming World on Tuesday at our local group.
I have had a long chat with DP who has promised to support me this time rather than trying to tempt me with pizza.
I just really need a friend to be there to drive me on when i really don't want to do it anymore and someone who knows how it feels.
I have said it 100 times before but i need to loose this wieght, i hate myself and if im honest my relationship with dp is suffering becuase i can't stand the thought of myself naked or him touching me becuase i ama blob.
Thats it really, just needed to get that out there.
If anyone would like to be my friend and support me via mumsnet/email i would be greatfull.