What Made You Decide To REALLY lose weight THIS TIME? And what will you do when you FEEL YOU HAVE SUCCEEDED?

[MUM23ASD]

My 'final' straw moment was the last in a series of events... involving feeling ill....feeling ugly....feeling uncomfortable....and worrying about future health.

What finally made me look at myself and decide i had to either 'put up- or- shut up'...was...

MY husband was cleaning our windows... and a 'naughty' thought crossed my mind....what if i were to undress seductivly in our bedroom...as he cleaned the window!!!???

but then in a sickening reality check...i remembered how hideous i'd look...and spent the rest of the day moping around... hating myself.

A few years ago i lost weight and went out for a drink with DH (I NEVER socialise now)... and i can remember sitting on a high bar stool and feeling good about myself.

I want to feel that way again.

So...whilst i don't want to be a porn star...I would love to feel able to 'show more flesh' in daylight!!!!

i'd also love to have some 'pretty' photoes taken...nd get them to 'airbrush' me to perfection!!!

For me it was last year's holiday photos. I'd got some nice new clothes for the holiday, and looked pretty decent in the mirror when I tried them on. Only, of course, I was doing the "holding the tummy in a bit, looking at the right angle" thing... and the camera didn't do that, so when I got the pictures back, there was this pudgy middle-aged woman looking out of them, not the "well it's only a little extra weight round the middle, you'd hardly guess" woman I'd been seeing in the mirror.

What I'll do is go on holiday feeling confident I look a lot better this time!

Oh and the other thing I'll do, is to keep the weight off! I've decided, I'm not dieting, I'm changing the way I eat permanently, so that this is me for the rest of my life, being sensible about how I eat and not letting the weight creep back up again.

thats how i feel too.

i'm paying attention to the portion sizes at the moment...not really changing whta i eat particularily- just eating sensible ammounts.

I have lost 2lb in the past 2 weeks... and if that continues...eating as i am...then i am extremely happy...as i have been eating family meals...just smaller portions...rather than preparing separate 'diet meals'.

however this past week- i have not felt great- my period- and i cracked a tooth- so am not able to enjoy any food...except chocolate that just melts!

However...on the whole i've stuck to the portion control better than any other attempt to diet recently...so will get this tooth fixed...and maybe...who knows...with the tooth making eating so horrible...maybe that will 'force' me to only eat when i am truly hungry!!!