OMG How did this happen?

[lard]

I have been squeezing into my jeans for the last few months and they have become tighter and more uncomfortable. I have wore floaty, clever disguising tops, really high shoes to make my legs seem longer and always a little cardigan, it is like a uniform.

We have been decorating the bedroom and the full length mirror has been unavailable but now it is back!!

I have stood in front of it naked and had a good long look. I do not recognise my own body and i don't know how i got here. I am horrified and have joined ww. I just feel so upset. I even have cellulite in my midrif area. I hate me. Determined to lose the two stone that has slowly crept on.

There i have got it off my (currently rather ample) chest.

You WILL do it. .

Im a WW advert...I joined Aug 08 (having only lost 7 lbs in 6 months on SW..) AND have so far lost 28.5 lbs. (giving me a total of 35 ish lbs since Jan08 (15 months ago..which is when I finally decided enough was enough..)

I had had dd and ds within 18 months of each other and it took its toll on me. I never lost weight inbetween and also ds has/was quite ill from birth so weight didn't become my priority..That was until ds was christened and I saw a pic of myself. Yeah, I looked lovely BUT not how I wanted to look. I can say now I was huge..in my books anyway.

I have now gone down 4 dress sizes and my goal was my 30th in Feb. I wore a size 12 French connection dress and I felt devine..

I still would like to loose 1 stone but im not getting hung up on it. Im at a good weight won't get heavier (until dc 3..) and the only way is down .

Don't be harsh on yourself and be kind. Its taken time to get on and will take time to get off.

You will be here in 12 months time saying the same..im sure xx