Hi, I've name changed as it feels like quite a vulnerable post.
I've always struggled with my weight - I'm from a naturally very slim family and growing up I was 'sporty but solid' but my weight was constantly commented on so I felt huge. As a teen I spent a year basically starving myself to gain my families approval, went off to uni and gained a lot of weight and have struggled with my weight ever since. (And have never really developed a healthy relationship with food).
I know I have an obsessive personality, it makes me passionate about my job and hobbies but I'm scared of falling back into old obsessive food habits.
I'm active (active hobbies & job, an easy 30k steps a day) but obese, my relationship with food is the best it's been because I basically put it to the back of my mind which means while I don't eat terribly I'm also not super restrictive and must eat more calories than I should otherwise I would have lost weight by now.
I've had a slight pay increase at work, enough to justify either a personal trainer or mounjaro but I don't think I could afford both. I'd love to hear people's thoughts and experiences.
Thank you