I am 45, have been fat as long as I remember. I have dieted on and off since I was 11 but never been a healthy BMI. Since I had children I just stopped dieting at all and am now over 18 stone at 5ft 5in. I have no diagnosis but I eat compulsively every day, I have a happy and full life but food is my one true friend and my greatest source of sorrow… a treat, reward and punishment in one.
I have tried every single diet, usually more than once.
I know all the theory of healthy eating but since I was old enough to remember I have eaten in such a way that had brought me to this position. I know no other way unless I try very hard and ultimately fall off the wagon. I’ve been doing this a long time now, my health is starting to suffer and my weight stops me doing things I might enjoy- I don’t swim on holiday, can’t go on rides, can’t sit in certain chairs - you get the idea.
I could comfortably afford Wegovy… I could possibly make Mounjaro work financially….
I know people who have had great success.
I am scared that they will give me horrible side effects… I’m scared they won’t work…. I’m scared they will and I will need it forever…
I’’m also a bit scared that I’ll lose a part of myself that has always relied on food for comfort- a sort of weird core element of myself- which is stupid really.
Also if it fails … then what.
I tell myself that I can count calorie, but 30 years of failure suggests otherwise.
So what do I do? And if I go for it do I go for Wegovy (which is affordable and I’ll be on it long term) or stretch myself for Mounjaro… but what if I can’t keep up payments for higher doses…