I am trying to really dig deep into my psychology when it comes to food - like so many people I really struggle to resist food, it is such an integral part of my life. I need to lose around 3 stone now. I know I'll end up on WLI, but I'm breastfeeding at the moment.
Every element of enjoyment I get, my (limited) social life, everything I look forward to - revolves around food.
For context - I have a profoundly disabled son, and a 3 month old, I moved to a rural location from London for my son's needs 3 years ago - and now I struggle to find anything to look forward to that doesn't involve food/ drink.
Yesterday I took my baby out, I drove 40 mins to somewhere I can walk him in the pram - the walk was fine, but what I really wanted was to stop for a hot chocolate & cake. I did eventually dive into a cafe and had a diet coke - but it didn't really satisfy that need for a treat in me. The rest of the morning I wondered aimlessly.
I'm trying really hard to stick to 1200 cals a day, lower carb. But even the management of food is all I can think about. I went to the supermarket yesterday & trawled the aisles - and filled up the trolley with treats for my DH. I can't think about anything else.
We are so limited by our circumstances as to what we can do, we usually just drive and get a takeaway coffee/ takeaway food - it's all I look forward to. I just don't know how to kill this obsession with food, and even if WLI kill the obsession - what do I fill that space with? Do other people struggle with this?