Just had a dreadful food binge.. feel so ashamed.. :(

[ChocolateRockingHorse]

Very selfish and indulgent post considering the genuine heartbreak stuff going on on some of the threads tonight

But here goes anyway. Been doing v.well on my "diet"; joined a slimming club; been calorie counting the old fashioned way and found it really quite ok, along with Paul McKenna's school of thought - train yourself to know when to stop eating.. eating slowly, enjoy each mouthful, etc.

Had lost 6lbs and a total of 17cm in various places (they measure you at this club too which is great because even when you've not lost weight, you've something still shrunk at bit!)

I maintained weight last week, but still lost 1cm off each thigh.. was pleased as felt I'd "got away with" a lot as I'd let my calorie counting slip a bit. Since then, instead of getting right back on with it, I've had days when I've gone back into my old (frankly disgusting days) of pointless over indulgence. And these days, because I've taught myself to recongnise the "full" feeling I'd lost sight of years ago, I feel really bloated and (more psychologically) disgusting if/when I DO pig out.

This evening I've sat on Mumsnet and just kept eating. I am too ashamed to list what I've had. I didn't even go to Club this morning (Weds is the day) as I thought I'd just miss a week and get back on track for next week.

I seem to have lost my motivation. The house is always full of foods that are terrible for healthy eating (DS has cystic fibrosis and is 15.. trust me he NEEDS all that food in the house.. it's his healthy diet! I just need to leave it alone!) and I don't know how to get back on track. I am frightened I've put that whole 6lb back on.
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I wish once you'd lost it, it was off for good! That you couldn't re gain it even if you didn't lose more!

Help me get that motivation back please someone. Sometimes I think I have a (slight) problem. I half wish I could just throw it all up which I know is bad and I could never do it even if I wanted to! (And I don't.. don't want that slippery slope and anyway I hate vomiting!)

Why did I just eat all that? It's a sinful waste and totally disgusting and is just sitting there in my stomach ready to turn to fat when I got to bed shortly!

Ugh! I revolt myself!

I so know how you feel. If possible try and think that Tomorrow is another day, you wont have put on 6lbs over night, are you hormonal? That makes a difference with my bingeing. Drink lots of water tomorrow, and limit starchy carbs and fat, eat fruit and veg in small regular quantities and a bit of lean protein, put the "naughty" stuff in a place where you are not constantly stumbling across it when you open a cupboard. Keep very very busy over the next few days and try and do some extra exercise. This will make you feel a bit better that you have burnt those extra calories off....

Tomorrow is another day. Fresh start.

I think just concentrating on dieting is joyless and actually sets you up to fail. Concentrating on feeling good and full of life is the key.
Do yuo take some exercise? It is amazing how good that makes you feel (even if initially it is hard to shift)

Can you keep your ds's food in a separate place or even locked away?

Yes I go to the gym. Always aim for 3 x week but rarely make it; usually do twice. Not been this week, am very behind with my studying so thought I'd better not but actually it makes me feel better psychologically to go, I feel healthier and slimmer somehow, even when I'm not. I think I might try to go tomorrow; I so behind now that what difference is an hour at the gym going to make?!

Thanks for replying.

Water and few starchy carbs/fat. Right. (God I've had loads of the worst kind of carbs tonight. you know those party sized bags of crinkle cut ready salted crisps? Yes .. and more besides.. slices of cheese.. one by one.. you know those meant for burgers?! .. and oh God the jaffa cakes!!!

Actually confessing is like therapy...

try allen carrs easy way to lose weight book.

It's only food.
Your body weight is not set in stone.

Those are the worst kind of things. Send your blood sugar haywire and have you craving more. Does your ds have to have a special diet (high fat or something?) couldn't yuo buy healthier stuff??

What's eay about it Charliecat? I'll look it up if you give me an idea

(*easy)

Oh know I know Moondog.

Yes DS's "healthy diet" is as many calories and as much fat as he can consume.. he calorie requirement is phenomenal.. and no such thing as "bad carbs" for him!! (As long as he balances it all out a bit. .which he does.. you should see what he eats!)

I would say it would almost be worth having CF do eat like that.. but I wont!!

well i have been eating like horse recently, eating crap almost constantly, feeling podgy, feeling my clothes getting tighter and tighter and STILL hanging on the cupboard door munching whilst looking for something else to eat, also eating my dinner ALL of it even tho at the beginning of the meal i wasnt even bloody hungry but stuffing it all in regardless to the last pea...then oh going for a bag of crisps...

so i thought id get the AC book as he helped me stop smoking..and since ive read it...a few days ago ive had one bag of crisps, i have left food on my plate...and im not stuffing my face...

you have to read it i think, its just a change of mindset over food.

p.s ebay or library cheap/free

Sounds like Paul McKenna. I'll give that another read I think, but I'll look yours up too