I have at least 20kg to lose but I just can’t stop eating too much. I’ve been out on antidepressants and had some counselling but I just end up saying the right things so I don’t have to attend anymore. Every day I have multiple treats, because they’re there or because I buy them. Even if I don’t have them in the house I will go to the shop and buy them. I was so good on holiday but when I was alone I ate the biscuits and nice stuff we had bought.
I can't seem to say no to food. Sat in a meeting today and someone brought some chocolate in, I held off for a bit but eventually ate a bar (despite having had yogurt and fruit and a pastry for breakfast, a huge sausage role and some fruit for lunch… and then had homemade curry and rice and wine for tea) even though the other women around the table said they wouldn’t as they had sweets yesterday/have an event next week etc.
I just don’t know how people eat “normally”, I just can’t stop myself but I can’t keep piling on the weight and being even more unhappy with how I look.