How to stop being obsessed with the scales

[Mamabear256]

So I’ll start off with saying, I’m not overweight at all. I weigh 8 stone 11/12 and am 5’5. However I am ridiculously obsessed with the scales and my ‘goal’ of being 8 stone 7. I’ve been trying for months and months to get down to 8 stone 7, sometimes I get down to 8 stone 10 but after a few days I’m back to 8 stone 11/12. I have a really unhealthy relationship with food, I purposely eat less in the day so that I can have a nice big dinner and I am sugar addicted I’m pretty sure. No matter what I have to eat chocolate (in the form of brownies, ice cream, pure chocolate etc) after my dinner every evening. I’m struggling to stop this.

I just want to heal my relationship with food, stop being obsessed with sugar and the scales and just be happy and enjoy the food I eat guilt free. Has anyone else been in a similar situation?

It sounds like you've got a full blown eating disorder so I'm not sure that tips from randos on the internet (e.g. just get rid of the scales) are not going to help you. You need a mindset change and to address the issues causing this.

It kind of sounds like bingeing to me, depriving yourself throughout the day to have "more" in the evening.

I did have an eating disorder in my teens/early adulthood but that was caused by feeling trapped and not in control of my life. Once I'd moved out, got a job and independence it kind of tapered off. I only got this clarity after I was out of the woods.

Have you thought about what might be driving your issues?

Thank you for your response. I have wondered if it is that at one point but it doesn’t seem like the typical eating disorders you hear about and I don’t have much knowledge about them so didn’t explore that idea that it could be that much.

I do struggle with OCD, which I am getting counselling for.

Thinking about the root cause of this, I am not entirely sure. My home life is good, work is good, there isn’t anything I can complain about. I think the ‘binge eating’ in the evening is more habit to be honest. It’s trying to break that habit there.

With regards to the scales - I just don’t know why I’m obsessed. I weigh myself twice a day, once in the morning and once before bed. Again, I don’t know why. It’s all consuming now and I want to stop.