Fifteen stone and feel bad

windberry · 2024-06-09T20:16:21+00:00

I have put so much weight on in last two years Can't stop eating crap and don't enjoy anything if sweet food not involved. Feel out of control but legs cellulite terrible, stomach becoming apron, ankles swollen, all my clothes tight and uncomfortable. Reading weightloss chats on here a lot of people are saying they are unhappy with their weight and a lot less than me so I feel disgusting and feel what's the point as never going get there. So overwhelming 😰 Got holiday in six weeks so will be fat for that but can't get mindset or motivation for even after that. I just find temptations everywhere and don't enjoy anything if cakes biscuits crisps crap not part of it. I never feel satisfied when eating meals where there's not a pudding. But on other hand hate myself. I know all the theory but can't put it into practice anymore.

KennaThomas · 10/06/2024 02:50

Lots of love to you.

Thank you for sharing this.

Have you come across the term binge eating disorder before?

nzeire · 10/06/2024 05:56

Oh, you’ll feel so much better if you started eating well and losing a bit of weight.

inknow how hard it is to get started. I joined an online group for the month of may, exercise and diet, and lost 5kgs. It’s spurred me on to keep going, I feel so much lighter and healthier

Londonnight · 10/06/2024 06:08

I was you two years ago, without the cellulite. My diet consisted of total crap, cakes, biscuits, chocolate etc daily. I weighed 15st 2 lb. Today I weigh 8st 13 lb. I did this on the Cambridge 1.1 diet.

For me I had to go cold turkey. I totally cut the whole crap out of my diet and gave up the little alcohol that I drank. For me, this was the only way I could lose the weight. None of it is easy, but it is so worth it.

AhBiscuits · 10/06/2024 06:20

Can you afford injectibles?
This is exactly how I felt before starting Wegovy in desperation. It's changed everything. I took it for 7 months and am 2lbs away from a healthy weight.
For me it took the appeal of food away and allowed me to reset and build healthy habits.

Newuser75 · 10/06/2024 06:23

The way I see it is, time will pass anyway, so you can either make a start and hopefully get closer to your goal, or else don't do anything and you will still be where you are now .
I know it's not easy!

Goatinthegarden · 10/06/2024 06:35

As another poster suggested, cold turkey is the way forward. I find I get ‘addicted’ to sugar; the more I have it, the more I crave it. If I can go a whole week without it, I find my cravings start to go and although I still fancy it sometimes, it’s without the same sort of ravenous urge and I can say no without feeling bothered. The only problem is, when I have it again, the cravings come back.

Once you get the sugar cravings out of your system, other foods start to taste much better too. I was three stone overweight and I lost it by first just cutting out all sugar/processed food and eating just ‘real’ food. I was calorie counting and realised that I could have a whole meal for the equivalent of a (giant) slice of my favourite cake. Running helped to melt the weight off (and yes, it’s hard and shit, but it does really give fast results, even if you run incredibly slowly) and seems to do something positive to control my appetite.

I’ve maintained a healthy weight for about five years now; I wish I could eat cakes and biscuits nonstop, but I have just had to learn that I can’t and I need to be stricter with myself. I still have to roughly calorie count and have cakes as an occasional treat, rather than a constant supply.

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windberry · 10/06/2024 07:04

KennaThomas · 10/06/2024 02:50

Lots of love to you.

Thank you for sharing this.

Have you come across the term binge eating disorder before?

No but makes sense

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windberry · 10/06/2024 07:04

nzeire · 10/06/2024 05:56

Oh, you’ll feel so much better if you started eating well and losing a bit of weight.

inknow how hard it is to get started. I joined an online group for the month of may, exercise and diet, and lost 5kgs. It’s spurred me on to keep going, I feel so much lighter and healthier

Started today
Wish me luck

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windberry · 10/06/2024 07:06

Londonnight · 10/06/2024 06:08

I was you two years ago, without the cellulite. My diet consisted of total crap, cakes, biscuits, chocolate etc daily. I weighed 15st 2 lb. Today I weigh 8st 13 lb. I did this on the Cambridge 1.1 diet.

For me I had to go cold turkey. I totally cut the whole crap out of my diet and gave up the little alcohol that I drank. For me, this was the only way I could lose the weight. None of it is easy, but it is so worth it.

Your story is very motivating
Well done as I know how hard it is to even start. Brilliant weight loss. Has inspired me.

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windberry · 10/06/2024 07:09

AhBiscuits · 10/06/2024 06:20

Can you afford injectibles?
This is exactly how I felt before starting Wegovy in desperation. It's changed everything. I took it for 7 months and am 2lbs away from a healthy weight.
For me it took the appeal of food away and allowed me to reset and build healthy habits.

Not keen as took some tablets years ago and made me feel ill

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Letsgoogogo · 10/06/2024 07:17

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KennaThomas · 10/06/2024 09:45

windberry · 10/06/2024 07:04

No but makes sense

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Have a read here:

https://www.beateatingdisorders.org.uk/get-information-and-support/about-eating-disorders/types/binge-eating-disorder/

And if this resonates, then seek help via your GP or call the BEAT support line.

Sometimes we need a bit more support as the issues run deeper than just needing to eat healthier/exercise.

Take care!

Binge Eating Disorder - Beat

Struggling with an eating disorder? Caring for someone who is? Beat is here to support you.

https://www.beateatingdisorders.org.uk/get-information-and-support/about-eating-disorders/types/binge-eating-disorder

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windberry · 10/06/2024 09:59

nzeire · 10/06/2024 05:56

Oh, you’ll feel so much better if you started eating well and losing a bit of weight.

inknow how hard it is to get started. I joined an online group for the month of may, exercise and diet, and lost 5kgs. It’s spurred me on to keep going, I feel so much lighter and healthier

I've started today so will keep everyone updated on my progress

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windberry · 10/06/2024 10:02

Londonnight · 10/06/2024 06:08

I was you two years ago, without the cellulite. My diet consisted of total crap, cakes, biscuits, chocolate etc daily. I weighed 15st 2 lb. Today I weigh 8st 13 lb. I did this on the Cambridge 1.1 diet.

For me I had to go cold turkey. I totally cut the whole crap out of my diet and gave up the little alcohol that I drank. For me, this was the only way I could lose the weight. None of it is easy, but it is so worth it.

Tried Cambridge diet but only lasted two days as I didn't like taste,
Did lighter life five years ago and lost almost five stone but can't do again as dislike food/smell of food now.
I know they have good results if you stick to them.

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windberry · 10/06/2024 10:04

Goatinthegarden · 10/06/2024 06:35

As another poster suggested, cold turkey is the way forward. I find I get ‘addicted’ to sugar; the more I have it, the more I crave it. If I can go a whole week without it, I find my cravings start to go and although I still fancy it sometimes, it’s without the same sort of ravenous urge and I can say no without feeling bothered. The only problem is, when I have it again, the cravings come back.

Once you get the sugar cravings out of your system, other foods start to taste much better too. I was three stone overweight and I lost it by first just cutting out all sugar/processed food and eating just ‘real’ food. I was calorie counting and realised that I could have a whole meal for the equivalent of a (giant) slice of my favourite cake. Running helped to melt the weight off (and yes, it’s hard and shit, but it does really give fast results, even if you run incredibly slowly) and seems to do something positive to control my appetite.

I’ve maintained a healthy weight for about five years now; I wish I could eat cakes and biscuits nonstop, but I have just had to learn that I can’t and I need to be stricter with myself. I still have to roughly calorie count and have cakes as an occasional treat, rather than a constant supply.

I do need to get in this mindset as I'm of mindset that life not worth it if not eating crap. Ridiculous but got such bad habits now.

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I like walking a lot but feet kill me these days due to fat feet I think joints can hardly stand up from bath floor
I'm five foot 4

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BobShark · 10/06/2024 10:07

Hi,

It sounds as though this is more an eating disorder, than anything.

I'm a similar weight to you, I shouldn't be, I train at bootcamp four days a week and walk everywhere. It's but lack of exercise, but I can't control my eating.

My nutritionist describes it as emotional eating, trying to fill or block an uncomfortable feeling.

It's gotten worse the last year or two and despite increasing exercise I've continued to eat more and more.

Last week my GP prescribed me Contrave, which basically works to block the addiction receptors in the brain, it contains something called naltrexone which is used to help quit smoking.

It's apparently been successful for those with binge eating or food addiction.

I tried to manage by myself but just couldn't, I'm also having therapy to help support and find new coping mechanisms.

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windberry · 10/06/2024 10:08

BobShark · 10/06/2024 10:07

Hi,

It sounds as though this is more an eating disorder, than anything.

I'm a similar weight to you, I shouldn't be, I train at bootcamp four days a week and walk everywhere. It's but lack of exercise, but I can't control my eating.

My nutritionist describes it as emotional eating, trying to fill or block an uncomfortable feeling.

It's gotten worse the last year or two and despite increasing exercise I've continued to eat more and more.

Last week my GP prescribed me Contrave, which basically works to block the addiction receptors in the brain, it contains something called naltrexone which is used to help quit smoking.

It's apparently been successful for those with binge eating or food addiction.

I tried to manage by myself but just couldn't, I'm also having therapy to help support and find new coping mechanisms.

Will speak to gp

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PotOfTulips · 10/06/2024 10:11

You are not alone, OP!

Menora · 10/06/2024 10:16

you really are not alone I went through this at more weight than you, please reach out to BEAT as I agree I think this is an eating disorder and very much attached to your mental wellbeing. You need to be kind to yourself. The way I saw it was I was trying to eat my other uncomfortable feelings away by making myself feel physically uncomfortable

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windberry · 12/06/2024 16:07

PotOfTulips · 10/06/2024 10:11

You are not alone, OP!

Thankyou

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windberry · 12/06/2024 16:07

Menora · 10/06/2024 10:16

you really are not alone I went through this at more weight than you, please reach out to BEAT as I agree I think this is an eating disorder and very much attached to your mental wellbeing. You need to be kind to yourself. The way I saw it was I was trying to eat my other uncomfortable feelings away by making myself feel physically uncomfortable

Thankyou

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CareerChange24 · 24/06/2024 18:09

Londonnight · 10/06/2024 06:08

I was you two years ago, without the cellulite. My diet consisted of total crap, cakes, biscuits, chocolate etc daily. I weighed 15st 2 lb. Today I weigh 8st 13 lb. I did this on the Cambridge 1.1 diet.

For me I had to go cold turkey. I totally cut the whole crap out of my diet and gave up the little alcohol that I drank. For me, this was the only way I could lose the weight. None of it is easy, but it is so worth it.

Can I ask if you got a loose skin? I’m almost a month into my weight loss journey and it’s something I hope I’m not punished with

Tarquina · 24/06/2024 19:20

What happened is that you've become addicted just the same as a person gets addicted to nicotine, or cocaine etc. The manufacturers have set out to make us addicted they want us to eat more and more and more of the products which they can make very cheaply with sugar and flour. As others have said the only way is to have a complete detox, to stop eating these things overnight just stop. It's really hard but you know what as each day goes by it gets a little bit easier and little bit easier. I have not eaten any biscuits cakes pastries pizza pasta etc for five years and no chocolate or sugar for nine months, so it is possible even though I was a complete an utter hopeless addict. Turns out I was an addict but I wasn't hopeless.

windberri · 24/06/2024 21:19

Tarquina · 24/06/2024 19:20

What happened is that you've become addicted just the same as a person gets addicted to nicotine, or cocaine etc. The manufacturers have set out to make us addicted they want us to eat more and more and more of the products which they can make very cheaply with sugar and flour. As others have said the only way is to have a complete detox, to stop eating these things overnight just stop. It's really hard but you know what as each day goes by it gets a little bit easier and little bit easier. I have not eaten any biscuits cakes pastries pizza pasta etc for five years and no chocolate or sugar for nine months, so it is possible even though I was a complete an utter hopeless addict. Turns out I was an addict but I wasn't hopeless.

Yeah I know you are right but how do you manage when on holiday, birthday, Christmas. Do you enjoy your time/life.
So much of my life enjoyment revolves around food!!