Anyone want to talk emotional and/or disorganised eating?

[Scallops]

Hi All, I'm hoping to lose a few pounds but have realised that more importantly, my relationship with food is weird.

I don't eat too much, or in a harmful way, but I can't for the life of me stick to a specific plan or even a vague menu for the day. I'll often snack at random rather than have proper meals, and find myself zoning out quite often when I eat.

I'm certain this goes back to childhood stuff around food deprivation and panic when I feel hunger. I then severely restricted food as a teenager and before dc so I have fear I won't eat enough if I'm paying full attention (I think? It's not conscious). I don't talk to people in real life about this because it relates to childhood abuse and people don't want to hear about that.

Does anyone relate and would you like to chat about it in case it helps?

There are a few threads around that might help I will look them out.

Mostly you have got the gist of using mindfulness but it alarms you at the moment so you might need to use it lightly. You do need to eat whilst you are aware of what you are doing and not just eat blindly doing another activity. And when using mindfulness it can just be about enjoying the food not negative thoughts about how many calories are in it, or whether it is enough food. You don’t trust your body enough yet to help you make decisions, perhaps you could do with talking to someone?

Thanks @Menora I agree that mindfulness is a great idea, starting with not multitasking while I eat!

I started this thread so as not to derail another one ('Anyone want a weight loss buddy to obsess with?') but people on there seem ok discussing it so I think I'll carry on over there - sorry! Also anyone can join us there if you're interested or think it could help you