Hate my body what can I do?

[Bodyshame1980]

I hate hate hate my body. I hated growing up in the 90s and the messaging of that era. My body weight has fluctuated between 70kgs to 110kgs. I’m 5ft 4. I had bad acne as a teenager and scars all over my back and shoulders. I have flabby skin from the weight gain/loss and pregnancy.

i have awful cellulite on my legs. I have strectch-marks. I have large floppy breasts and ugly large areola.

I have thinning hair on my front.

my belly is shaped like a weird B, my middle section overhangs my bottom section, I have a flabby pubic area.

I have this awful hatred for my body, I wish I was scarless and ‘firm’ fat I could cope with that. Instead I’m a scarred, flabby, hairy mess.

I'm so sorry you feel like this. I would suggest going to your GP. They can refer you to weight loss clinics if you have a BMI over 30 (I think). They can investigate your hormones, thyroid and bloods to see if theirs anything hormonal going on or look for diabetes/pre diabetes or metabolic syndrome.
You may be able to tone up with exercise, weight lifting especially can help you tone up. It's about figuring out what you need to change and what you can fit into your life.
Bio oil or vit e oil can help reduce scars. or if money isn't an issue then you can look into laser or light therapy, skin peels, micro needling and all sorts of other therapies that are proven to improve skin texture.
You can make changes to make yourself feel better, good luck.

Thanks for this. I feel like I’ve lived like this for years. I do have an underactive thyroid, that probably doesn’t help.

I’ve started back at pilates. I hate all the loose skin and scarring and just flabbiness of my body.

My BMI is 33 now I believe.

@Welliwould ill look into these skin procedures, it’s such a vast area my shoulders and my back. And deep scars from the acne. I still get the occasional large lumpy spot. Thank you for your support.