What was the 'spark' that made you want to lose weight?

[igotbills]

I am currently 12 weeks away from a huge event which I promised myself I would lose 20lbs for... a year ago!

I have successfully lost weight on a few occasions but there was always something that 'clicked' with me and put me in the zone, this time I'm really struggling!

Hoping to read some inspiration from others to give me a kick up the backside

Mine is complicated
been overweight my whole adult life and although I have lost weight before I hadn’t really invested much effort to keep it off
I was more bothered about how I looked and always self conscious

some children (relatives) made comments to me about my body and I found it really hard but finally able to look objectively at myself, I was massive unfit and breathless on stairs at 40

at the same time my relatively young mother (early 60’s) became more and more immobile and it is entirely due to lack of self care for many years. I had to look after her and I found it absolutely awful, it really made me terrified about me having to rely on my kids to care for me whilst they are still young and how like my mum it’s all self inflicted and avoidable and I felt so cross at her.

I had a HBA1C of 42 and I just woke up one day and was like fuck this. I want to change

I lost 4st and got fit. I am on my last stretch of weight loss now (under 1st)

I never want to go back to how I was before. I was not caring for myself at all. It’s self neglect/harm.

I also have done a lot of internal work on how I was in denial and delusional about my health and weight but I think it’s common to hit 40’s and have a wake up call

my relationship with my kids is a actually so much better now too as I think they know I am doing it for them as much as me