Weight and self consciousness ruining my holiday

[passmethetissues]

Hi
I'm feeling so down and I'm currently on a weekend trip away!
Feeling too self conscious to go swimming or out and about and it's ruined our day (me and dp).
Do loves swimming etc. but I just feel like such a giant next to him and out and about! I've never been this big or even insecure and he's really hard. I'm 5'9.5 and 13 stone and just feel huge.
Please give me a confidence boost! Have been inside most of the day feeling sorry for myself

That's not even big. And no one but you cares. I went swimming today and people were all shapes and sizes. Don't let it ruin your holiday.

Nobody else notices or cares. Just enjoy yourself.

I'm over 15 stone at 5'6" and wear a bikini on holiday. Nobody knows you there so what does it matter what anyone else thinks?

That’s not big

No-one is looking at you at that weight/height - enjoy your holiday and stop thinking that everyone is looking at you, they’re far too busy focusing on themselves and their partners/family/friends.

OP you weigh less than me. Im on holiday with my DP and DCs and Im swimming. There are people of all shapes and sizes and no one cares. Have fun. You'll never see those people again.

In the kindest way possible, you are not that important. Nobody is interested in you, they are all far too focused on themselves, and their kids, and what they are having for lunch or what book to read next.

Do not let this spoil your holiday or drive a wedge into your relationship.

Thank you everybody!
It's good to hear this as not looking for sympathy but more so a kick up the arse!
I think a lot of it is more what dp thinks of me and feeling huge next to him. He's in good shape and I feel so big. He doesn't see me in underwear or anything anymore as I'm just not comfortable! None of this comes from him as he thinks I'm beautiful but I've been raised in a family who are always on a diet and need to be skinny
It's funny because I'm the first person to say to others that they're beautiful and size and would never ever judge anybody but I'm so harsh on myself

No one cares, or will notice. I’ve had a double mastectomy and am completely flat, with scars. No one notices in the swimming pool or at the beach.

No one does care really. I just always think about my DP liking/loving me no matter what and he’s the only person who I am fully naked for anyway!

I echo what everyone else is saying but I really can relate. I'm 5'8 and a size 12 but feel humongous as for the majority of my life I was 'skinny'. 2 kids later and the curves are apparently here to stay. I could look at someone else the same size as me and think they look great but because this isn't my norm I just can't get my head around my own body