Hi everyone
Just arrived at hotel and oh fit but I am five stone overweight and lots of ladies here looking gorgeous slim brown, no leg veins and so on.
I feel terrible and am so ashamed of how I have let myself get like this. I can't get a grip on myself and have lost control. A few years ago my oh almost left me. I think I sensed they were distancing and I worked hard to improve appearance. Half way I lost two half stone and around that time due to his friendship with another lady he almost left me. I was distraught. Stayed together and I lost further two half done five stone total. Kept it off for about year but last few years almost all back on.
Feel sad too as oh never initiates physical stuff. Only hugs cuddles but I suppose deep down I know he is not attracted to the person I have become physically.
Sometimes I think what's the point as he was going leave me before and I'm repulsive and I was in middle of weight loss. Just wish I had a good body no veins etc do I felt good. Feel ashamed as only myself to blame.
Anyone else on here lost weight and become attractive again?