Binge eating help

[asosStalker]

I don’t know what to do. I can’t stop myself. I just eat and eat. I eat in secret. I can’t go past a petrol station without stuffing my face with chocolate. I can’t look at a biscuit tin without opening it , and before I know it I’ve had 5. I wake up in the morning craving sugar.

I’m over 75kg. I’ve gained over 5kg since January. I used to be able to run a 22 minute 5km. I can’t even break 35 now. I had grand plans to do another marathon and a 10km swim this year but I’m getting progressively more shit at swimming and running, and I’m tired all the time.

I know it’s easy to just say stop. But I literally can’t. I’ve eaten before I know I’ve done it. And if I don’t, I’m hungry and miserable. I just feel like I have no control.

I’m the same. It’s like a switch has flipped and I can’t push it back or something like that. I know the only way to stop again is to drink lots of water and semi fast to get back but every single day I struggle or forget what I wanted to aim for. No help sorry.

I’ve just re-referred myself for talking therapy (ironically finished therapy a few months ago) but not sure what, if anything, they can do.

I feel like I need an appetite suppressant but I’m technically only ‘overweight’. I can really feel it though.

I don’t think it helps that my iron stores are really low. I’ve just started iron so hopefully that might make me feel a bit less shit.

I just feel like I’ve reached crisis point.

I struggled with binge eating for most of my life, the thing that helped me was Slimpod. You pay for 3 months and listen to a pod every day, write 3 wins per day and the aim is to not be on a diet but just to subconsciously make healthier choices.

I'll be honest, I didn't lose any weight in my first 12 weeks (I only started losing weight when I counted my calories) but the biggest change was I stopped wanting to binge. It's been like a little switch that has turned off, suddenly it just doesn't make sense to go out and buy loads of food and eat it all because it's not going to help me get to where I want to be and it's not going to make me feel good.

I've also seen many people talk about positive experiences with the book "Brain Over Binge", I have never read it myself but I've listened to a few episodes of her podcast.

this is a video from a youtuber called Liz who does a lot of self help videos, she talks about this in this video and it really made sense to me, especially the part about treating the urge to binge as a demon.

Asos I was you. I would go on crazy binges and I just could not stop. My weight rocketed. I would promise myself that I would never do it again then, two minutes later, head to the shops for binge food. The only thing that helped me was Overeaters Anonymous oa.org. It's like AA but for food. No fees, just voluntary donations and all meetings are volunteer run so it doesn't cost a fortune and it really has helped me lose weight but - more importantly- get sane. Feel free to DM me if you need to.