Exhausted by thoughts of weight and food

[loverofpants]

Just that, really.

I gained a lot of weight post pregnancy due to some complications and then my appendix burst which led to more setbacks.

I've been around 90kg for the last 18 months, I'm 5"5' and it's mainly around my middle so I can't even dress it properly, as I just look pregnant.

I'm so exhausted by the thoughts of food and weight. We rarely do anything at the weekends, partly due to being perpetually on a diet so not wanting to eat or drink out and partly as I've no idea how to dress and live in old oversized t shirts and leggings.

I don't live in the uk currently so it's noticeable as it's warm here all year round and most people are In sundresses and bikinis.

I've tried going to the gym, calorie counting,ridiculous modern day equivalents of Slim Fast, just nothing seems to be working. The last 5 weeks I've gone to the gym 4 times a week, done at least 10k steps daily and weighed/counted everything on MFP and went back for my weigh in and I weighed exactly the same. I was mortified and got in the car and just cried hysterically for a solid 10 minutes.

I just wish I could rewire my brain and reset my body to start all over again as I've no idea where to go from here. I've considered weight loss surgery, the injections, starving, I just don't want to be like this anymore.

Firstly please be kind to yourself. You've been through a lot recently.
Secondly accept yourself for how you are now & not how you might be when you've lost weight.
It sounds like you're doing everything right, you perhaps just need to give it a bit longer.
Healthy food 80% of the time with the other 20% for treats. Keep up the exercise but don't go mad or it's unsustainable.
You absolutely do not need weight loss surgery.
It's also absolutely fine to have a complete break from it all.
Wishing you all the best.

Hi op. I've felt similar, bounced between bmi 24-34. The only things that have ever worked for me are things that controlled hunger or avoided food entirely. Keto, fasting and this week I have started ozempic which controls appetite. Moderation has never been effective but I'm sure you will get lots of 'its just about calories in vs out' which frankly is bollocks in many cases.

I have had an identical experience with exercise. Spent a month with a personal trainer working my ass off and lost...exactly nothing. Its really best to exercise for general health rather then weightloss as its is mainly diet that works for weight loss.

I didn't want to read and run.
This sounds really hard. The thought of you crying in the car is so sad.
I've lost quite a bit of weight this year, and the thing that has been most effective has been cutting carbs, intermittent fasting and allowing it to take time.

The carb cutting is quite easy and made a big difference to cravings and hunger in general. Nothing drastic, just avoiding bread, rice, pasta, potatoes etc. Eating my proteins with just a vegetable or salad. I used to love aforementioned carbs so much, now they rarely cross my mind.

The intermittent fasting is a godsend and once in the habit, a really useful way of getting to ignore thinking about food for a good chunk of the day; I try not to eat my first meal until midday, and it's such a relief.

The time factor is just my personal preference. I didn't have a particular point in time by which I wanted to achieve a certain weight loss goal, I just worried I was heading down the pre-diabetic route and wanted to make sustainable change.