My weight has been an issue now for about a decade. I was very physically active and ate healthy and was a healthy weight with good fitness until my mid thirties. Developed an autoimmune condition while in grad school and became very sedentary and unhealthy and gained 50lbs. My condition has now stabilized and I am out of grad school and there is no reason why I can't lose the weight. I used to have good self control and now I have none - I just eat what I want and as much as I want and other than the occasional walk, my routine has no activity (work at a desk).
A couple months ago, I decided enough was enough and got into a healthy routine and lost 10 pounds in about 5 weeks. I was getting exercise, controlling my intake, making healthier choices. Not restricting or on a specific diet - just being healthy. My clothes fit better so I could see a little change just from those 10 pounds. But then about 3 weeks ago, I slowly started getting out of that routine. I was sick for a few days, then had a stressful deadline and before you know it, only 3 weeks later, I have gained the 10 pounds back. It just seem impossible now to get my head into the right place to get back to being healthy as I can't seem to sustain it. Even when I see results, I slip back and gain again.
No one's fault but my own, I just don't feel I have the mental fortitude anymore to be healthy. How to motivate myself to try again when I have no confidence I can keep it going past a month or so?