Big school reunion coming up next month (30 years since we all left!) and I've decided not to go. I can't face it as I'm now 4 stone heavier than I was at school. I realise that this is completely pathetic. I'm just feeling so sad about it as actually I would love to go. I have friends I still see from school who obviously know I'm bigger but lots of people I hardly see these days, I just can't face it especially the idea that people might not recognise me.
Not sure why I am posting really. Just feeling very, very sad. I have spent a long time deciding not to go as I realise it's a bit pathetic to be held back from doing something like this. Can't tell DH or anyone IRL as I know they would tell me to go and I simply can't. (I'm not lacking in confidence generally and have an active social life- it's just this event that makes things seem so stark.)