We are planning to have children in the next year or so, and I have been reading about the health risks to the baby if you are pregnant and your BMI is over 30.
Mine certainly is over 30 
and after spending 3 years in a horrible daily emotional battle with myself, I came to realise that I had binge eating disorder.
Whilst I am quietly optimistic about my relationship with food improving over the past few weeks (a kind of breakthrough), I am worried stiff about something happening in pregnancy - if we conceive at all - and then knowing I have myself to blame for being obese.
I really don’t want to be obese. I’ve tried so many diets and plans and philosophies all to no avail. The only thing has improved things slightly is LETTING MYSELF EAT. This means I don’t feel deprived and consequently don’t eat great loads of food until I’m nauseous, sweating and groaning with tummy pain. Other BED sufferers will understand the paradox of wanting to lose weight so badly but being utterly compelled to binge.
In my younger years, I could never understand how someone could be so overweight, then health problems hit me in my late twenties (gone away for now) and here I am weighing 15 stone struggling to put my socks on.
How do I accept that I will be a larger pregnancy woman, knowing that the risks for so many conditions/issues are increased?? Or do I not have a baby due to my inability to eat normally? Has anyone had BED and coped with pregnancy?