First day of the rest of my life.

[Skinnymimi]

Hello!
I am done being fat and cellulity. I am done bingeing on shite. A little while ago, a skinny friend told me : If you want to look like me, you will have to give up biscuits and crisps forever. And I cried… like a whale crying at the thought of not gorging anymore. I disgusted myself. I saw her yesterday and when she entered the room, all the men (and women to be honest) stopped and stared. She is not the most beautiful. She is far from the youngest. But she is skinny and put together. I want that for myself. I want people to stop and stare. Her voice resonated in my head “ No more crisps for ever…ever…ever” and you know what? I don’t give a crisps. I already ate all the crisps. I know what they taste like. Same for all the bloody M&S cakes. I know exactly how they taste. I am ok with never having a single frie, piece of cake or crisp until I am at my peak body (for my age of 43). I want to be skinny more than I want any food. I am starting a new lifestyle of beauty and thinness after years of being every body’s flippin servant. If you want to princess the skinny out of you, feel free to join.

So the first step is that I got rid of all the out of objective foods in the house. trashed it. Some will say what a waste but I was trashing it in my body by eating it anyway. I do not value my bin more than my own body. So there is nothing to snack on except healthy AF. I bought a minuscule olive oil bottle and it has to last me the week. No butter. Trashed peanut butter. Trashed cheese slices. DH and pre teen DCs are furious. I said not my effing problem. I will cook the diet meals. They are free to have some. They are free to cook for themselves. If they want takeaway, they can eat it in the garden, no such things in my house.

I'd like to join you . So fed up with the cycle I'm in and hating what I see in the mirror!

I’d like to join you. I saw a photograph of myself taken today that made me cry. I don’t recognise myself anymore.

@smoocakes6 right!? Such a destructive cycle. I want to break it.

@Dancingonmoonlight i also saw a pic of myself. I am obese. Dh said it’s just a bad angle. But even the worst angle shouldn’t look like that…

I have been ultra on target for dinner. I will now make myself a pedicure as I might be a size 41 with men feet, but they could be soft as a baby and perfectly painted.

I am still on holidays and finding it difficult. Today I ate two biscuits. But I am conscious of what I am eating and am not eating as much as I’d like to eat. I ate three slices of toast this morning as it was in front of me. Usually when watching I limit to one slice per day. When I go home, it will be easier to make better choices.

Hey @Dancingonmoonlight I understand what you mean. I have decided that NOTHING will come in my way. My DH brought cake and I didn’t eat any! It is still in the fridge and I am not touching it. I want a flat belly more than anything

Toast is the enemy. It is sugar, chemicals and empty calories. You CAN put it down.

Skinnymimi Yes toast is a waste of calories. It was just ‘easy’. I’m due to go home in a couple of days and my own fridge and grocery shopping. I have decided too not to buy clothes at my current size. I need to lose weight and when I do, I have lots and lots of clothes in my wardrobe.

I'll join you, weight has crept to 9 st 7 and I'm only 5.3"! Hoping to get back to 8.5 ASAP.

Hi @happydays2345! No bullsh!t, no excuses! We just fight ourselves as our own worst enemies! What is your motivation?

@Dancingonmoonlight for a while I refused to buy clot My new fat size. So I was fat AND badly dressed… i recommend 1 or 2 pieces very versatile to have a safe and pretty option every day