What keeps you motivated? or How do I start caring again

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Hello. Obligatory NC disclaimer notice (because I'm ashamed). Also I'm not in the UK so covid rules are different where I am, FYI.

After two decades of weight-related obsessiveness and anxiety I think I've burned myself out into completely not caring. The problem is that I am very overweight at the moment but I am binge eating and binge drinking like its my last days (probably on the fast track!). Normally what usually happens is that my disgust for myself kicks in and I resort to semi-starvation/unhealthy ways to sort things out, but I just can't bring myself to do it anymore. I can't say I don't give a shit about my weight because I really really do, but vanity and health just don't move me at all (pun intended).

How do you stay motivated? How do you keep sticking to your long term goals? How do you just plain give a crap about yourself?

Intellectually, I know I can't wait for divine inspiration to make me care- so I've joined a gym and I've been to a few high intensity group classes BUT it just feels so empty. I want to be excited about good health and being lovely and slim but i really don't give a crap.

Sorry for long-winded post, can anyone relate? Thanks for reading

In my case it was not wanting to end up on statins, blood pressure medication and morbidly obese & struggling like DM. My DGM (also always a pretty large lady) had had to go into a home due to mobility issue because of her arthritis. I had been diagnosed with arthritis in several joints a good couple of decades younger than DGM & DM were and I didn’t like the look of the future that was in store for me. I also felt awful, was eating and drinking too much, and my Buddha belly was uncomfortable when I sat down. I just decided enough was enough, logged onto My Fitness Pal & I’m now maintaining my goal weight at 3 stone lighter than I was.

I wondering, as you say How do you just plain give a crap about yourself? how your MH is and if that could be improved which could lead to an improvement in diet etc?