I need to lose weight. My ankles hurt. My back hurts. I struggle to walk up the stairs whilst carrying my 1 year old. None of my jeans fit. I can't wear any of my pretty dresses.
The grim truth:
I weighed myself on Sunday (27/12/20) and the scales read 15st 1.6lbs. I am 5ft4.
I haven't been this heavy in years. I was lighter after I'd given birth over a year ago.
Prior to my pregnancy I was 11st 4lbs. Whilst technically "overweight" according to my BMI, I felt really good in my body. I was constantly moving and walking and more importantly, my body didn't ache. I fit comfortably in size 10 clothes. The numbers are of course arbitrary but I liked what I saw in the mirror and was happy.
It's been a tough 18 months, my mum died, so did my best friend (both non covid related) but I can't and won't use those experiences as an excuse for my weight gain.
I feel like I don't have enough time to lose weight; I'm studying full time for a degree whilst trying to run a house and be whatever my son needs me to be. I'm lucky that I have a very supportive partner. Where I struggle is when I get caught up being a perfectionist; if I can't give something my 110% time and effort, I don't want to do it at all. The truth is I don't MAKE time to lose weight.
I'm ready to make time. I really want to be comfortable in my body again.
Rather than starting on "Monday" or "New Year's Day", I started the moment I stepped on the scales yesterday. If I am ready to make time, why not now?
I've lost weight before and for me, I have to be strict with my calories. Exercise helps but at the moment, I need to lose about a stone first to feel comfortable enough to exercise.
I used to walk in excess of 20k+ steps a day, now I barely manage 5k.
My overall goal is to reach 11st 4lbs, so I need to lose 51.6 lbs (or 3st 9.6lbs).
I am using Nutracheck to log all my calories. I'll update this thread once an evening to share what I've eaten for the day.
I'm not logging my steps at the moment (my Fitbit needs charging) but I'll do this today.
I've attached a screenshot of my Nutracheck food diary yesterday (27/12/2020). I went a little over my 1200 calorie limit.
I'll weigh in here once a week, so every Sunday, and I'll be using this thread as my diary.
My trigger for starting this was Saturday night when I ugly cried about how uncomfortable I felt, how I no longer liked what I saw in the mirror, not being able to play with my son without getting out of breath and overall feeling pretty low as my confidence is at zero.
Let's do this!