Hi
I have come to a point where I feel I am totally obsessed with my weight and weighing myself and it’s all i can think about.
I’m 30 5,3 i have always been curvier.. I have big boobs bum and thighs and I always have done even when I’ve Been a lower weight.. I am happy with being more curvier and wasn’t. A problem as my stomach used to be quite flat..
I’ve always hovered around 13 stone - 13.7 for the last 5 years .. I wasn’t happy with this and I got down to 12 stone doing SW but put it back on.. However fast forward to last Xmas I weighed myself in jan I was disgusted I weighed 14.9 stone! I joined exante which is not for the faint hearted ! And I got back down to just under 13 stone .. slowly over the last year with lockdown etc I am back up to 13.13/14 stone.
I’m not dieting atm but I will weigh myself basically daily.. if I go over the 14 mark i will then try and be more be more healthy for the next few days.. I’m not happy being in the high 13s however i Just cannot accept being in the 14s.
But I feel I am now obsessed with this, I stepped on the scales tonight don’t usually do this at night but my weight was on my mind.. and to my horror was 14.5 .. then took off my clothes went toilet ( soz for info) and was 14.3 .... I always go by my morning weight and know i weigh more at night so I know tommorow I’ll probably be 14.1 /14.
I realise I probably sounds mad and I think I should throw away the scales but I feel like I need to weigh myself everyday to see if I’m gaining weight.
I really don’t want to go back on exante it’s very hard and your social life is none existent but the results are quick.. I’ve always done slimming world when I have dieted and this has worked for me.
I just have no motivation and now with Xmas and it’s also my bday I have quite a lot of plans that Involve food but my body disgusts me yet I still eat.
I wouldn’t say I eat a badly everyday but my diet could definitely be improved . but I do drink maybe more often than I should
Sorry just had to get this all out !