It's a bit confusing. I was bulimic from the ages of 10 to age 15. Started off because people made fun of my rugby legs (I had/have unusually large calves).
Anyway, I recovered and it never really impacted be again at all! Ate pretty normally. Size 8/10, not the healthiest diet but never over ate.
Fast forward to having DS and several miscarriages, and I've remained at 12 stone! Can't seem to get it off as easily as before. I was 10.5 stone for a good 18 months after DS, then after each subsequent pregnancy I put on weight. Lost my daughter in October and put on 1 stone. Not comfort eating, just liking the wrong foods too much. Until here I am, 12 stone 2.
I got myself down to 11 stone 6 within a couple of weeks but weighed myself very recently and have returned to 12 stone 2! So put on an extra two pounds to when I started healthy living.
I've been doing spin class, yoga, pilates, swimming. Eating well. In calorie deficit and no sneaky eating either before anyone suggests I don't know what I'm eating.
Since learning I've put on weight, I feel awful. I've vomited three times. I absolutely hadn't 'binged' at all but I never did anyway when I was bulimic as a girl.... I ate fairly normally and then was sick.
I can't help but feel a nagging feeling to vomit after a meal now. Its awful. Doesn't matter how light the meal is. I feel awful. And a week ago I felt so positive 
The exercise classes have been brilliant and such fun, it really is a shame that I've now betrayed myself like this.
I haven't been sick again for over a day now but I feel like it will be back to control me again. Is there anything I can do? Could my GP even help, since it's Covid times?
I don't want to waste any more of my young years tied to an eating disorder. I want to be free of that