I know I've put on too much weight and I'm really stressed. I'm about 28 weeks and I've put on 28 pounds!!
I've been stressed during this year and I was bigger than I have ever been when I got pregnant. I'm back at work and I keep catching myself in the mirror and feeling like it doesnt even look like me. I make jokes about it expecting/wanting people to say 'oh no you look great!' But they all just laugh too or say 'oh dont worry about that right now'. Knowing that's what people think when they first see me makes me so sad. My friend called me and a girl we know it's due soon and she made a comment about how much weight shes put on and I literally wanted to vomit as I thought that she looks great!! I'm like bloody hell what do you think of me right now :(
I feel it's just got a head of me, with my first daughter I was so young and skinny it was so different. I feel I look massive and everyone thinks I do. I'm nervous to see my MIL for the first time since the start of lockdown tomorrow and she is really health conscious and really into fitness. I shouldn't of let it get this bad but now I feel a little stuck, I cant run as I will almost 100% piss myself and I am struggling to find I work out routine I can stick too. I'm not feeling very motivated because I feel so restricted. I haven't been eating horrendously recently and it's not even crazy protoins either. But I have to admit over lockdown I was so lazy.
Just want to feel a bit less alone as I'm just really annoyed at myself and I'm really not happy with how a look.