For as long as I can remember I've had issues with food. For a time in my late teens to mid twenties I would say I was bulimic and still use it as a crutch on occasion when I'm very stressed.
Luckily I have a very good husband who knows it all and can see when I'm spiralling again.
The other day during a chat before we fell asleep he mentioned in passing about me having an addictive personality. I laughed at first but when I think about it I do have several little ways that are like that.
Since lockdown I've hit a spiral of eating too much, feeling really sad and disgusting so eating more to feel better.
Obviously I know I'm wrong but I just can't find the self control.
I need help. But at the minute that's tough to come across.
I'm hoping that someone can point me in the direction of a good book that can help.
I've several ones about toxic parents on my kindle but haven't managed to actually open one yet.
Once things settle a bit I will get back onto the doctors who set me up with an amazing counsellor a couple of years back (parent issues and my disordered eating was only touched on briefly)
Hopefully I've posted this in the right place but if not I hope MN can move it.