Hello mamas.
I always came to mumsnet when I had a problem or unanswered question during my pregnancy and since I have my gorgeous little angel,my long waited baby boy.
He is 2 months old on Saturday,the 13th and its been a beautiful journey (with the ups and downs due to nipple pain,mastitis, colic and reflux,lack of sleep but only because I am not able to sleep,not because baby won't let me sleep,etc).
Yet...almost 2 months postpartum,I still have a big saggy belly (I've put on over 3 st and went from a size 10,12 to 14,16).
Ive never been slim,but before getting pregnant,I managed to get to a much desired weight first time in 31 years then all went to...town.
I had a 2nd degree tear with stitches that are still sore and tender,pelvic pain still present so I cant even do some light pilates exercises,because it hurts alot,especially next day.
My partner says he adores me and worships me and I am sexy to him and while this is true,I find it hard to look at myself in the mirror. I am all deformed and cant shift any of the weight of,although eating light and exclusively breasfeeding.
My belly stretch marks are huge,red and tender,(partner calls them war scars and to be proud of them and I know he's right).
I apply 100% pure aloe vera gel every day,but no difference...
I KNOW I am not reasonable, I know my body is been through a lot of changes,I know this shouldnt even be on my mind and every time I feel I am getting depressed about my looks,I look at my long waited angel and try to wash these ugly feelings off,but....
Today I feel really down about it. Belly is huge and saggy,waist is wide as the wall of china,bum is covered in cellulite.
My partner is thin,lean muscle formed only and he has an ultra fast metabolism . He adores me,but we look like Stan and Bran together and that kills me.
Please dont guilt trip me,please dont shame me,please just give me some of your support and advices.
My wish is to keep breasfeeding atleast until he's 1 year old,so cant follow a diet or worse,fasting which together with some exercises,was the only thing that helped me before reaching the weight I always dreamt of.
So,my questions are...when this abdomen and fanjo pain will go away? How can I slowly get rid of my belly? How can I slowly get rid of the overall weight if I cant exercise? Even walking brings my SPD back. How do I stop feeling like this? Why such an amazing miracle of nature which is bringing a baby into the world,comes with so many degrading problems? (Last question is more of a rhetorical one, feeling depressed today and hoping to snap out of it quickly).
My emotions and feeling dont interfere with the way I am treating and loving my baby whatsoever. He is my life,my reason to smile and live and I am profoundly honoured and happy that the universe allowed me to have him.
If you managed to finish this lousy post, I am thanking you for being here.
Stay safe mamas.