Self sabotage

[Mandraki]

Before Christmas (and most of last year) I had 12lb to lose. I was 11 stone 10 and a little chubby, but my jeans still fit. I didn't manage to lose any weight or stick to a diet for more than a couple of days. Over Christmas I gained about 9lbs. Now I've got 21lb to lose. I can't stop eating though, I feel that its self sabotage because I will do well all day and then eat a whole packet of biscuits.

I've done the whole slimming world and weight watchers thing, not for me all that clapping and forced happiness about eating pretend versions of things (I'm thinking scan bran cakes here). I'm currently signed up to TeamRH, which I like, and had success on in the past to lose my baby weight, which I did and then went on holiday last year (the 9lb gain).

I dont know what my point is but I'm very sad and I just want my pants to fit again. I need a smack round the head!

Definitely don't buy in any more biscuits. If you do, go for the party rings. They're less calories than the others, and limit yourself to 2 biscuits per day.

I have been there too, and 1 biscuit becomes the whole pack.

Or try making your own healthy cookies. Lots of recipes online and on YouTube.

Good luck! You can do it.

I'm sick of it too. Last year funnily enough I posted a thread with the same title.

I had success. Dare I say it was easy. Being open and talking actually made it easier to eat food normally and not obsess over it and eat everything in sight. Speaking openly about it made me more accountable sort of thing.

But unfortunately I am trapped in the binge eating cycle. Tonight has been an absolutely awful night. I've ate like a pig. I won't list everything I've eaten but we are talking easily 3000 calories or more in one go. I was eating it feeling sick thinking what the hell is wrong with me. Just stop.

Now I am here feeling absolutely shit about myself. I wouldn't be considered overweight, 9stone 11, 5ft 5, however my body shape has changed and I feel uncomfortable.

For me weight isn't the main issue, it's the way my mind works when it comes to food. It's never just one, always ends up on packs, bags and multiples of things. I genuinely think in need help and am looking for something to read to hopefully change my mindset. I only really want to lose less than a stone so my main focus is retraining my brain.

But I hear you 100 percent about the self sabotage. I'm desperate to stop it