Help me change my life....

[SpideyMom]

Hiya

Well where do I start. A few months back I posted about being sick of self sabotage with my constant binging. Talking on the thread helped me massively. Binging went from nightly to once every 2 to 3 weeks. I felt amazing that I was finally doing it after years of abusing my body and food always winning.

The reason I was desperate to make the change was because I was sick of it consuming my life, and also I had a summer holiday to prepare for.

Well my holiday is upon me and I've slipped back into bad ways terribly. I've regained the weight I lost, but my body looks like I don't care about myself. Even my little boy has started saying how Mommy has big legs and why are there dips in your skin Mommy... Aka the dreaded cellulite.

I know I'm never gonna make a difference in time for our holiday but I really do need to change my life and my relationship with food. I hate the control it has over me.

Any advice, books etc will be massively welcome. Thank you xx

My advice would be reading the Obesity Code and intermittent fasting.

Thanks. I will take a look.

At this point it's more a binging issue than a weight issue. I am 9 stone 10, 5ft 6 so would be considered within normal ranges but when I binge the amount I consume is terrible

Have you seen a therapist about what’s triggering your binges and alternative coping mechanisms?

Currently reading a good book on Overcoming Anxiety. Bingeing is often a coping mechanism, but obviously not a good one. You need to identify your triggers and work on alternative coping techniques. Easier said than done - I know!

No but you've made a good point. I suffer badly with anxiety

I recommend ‘Overcoming Anxiety’ by Helen Kennerly. It’s NHS approved for CBT with anxiety.

With my armchair psychologists hat on, I would guess that when he were actively taking part in the forum, it helped with some of your anxious thoughts.

There’s a section where you need to keep a track of your triggering thoughts and what prompts them. I’m really bad at this as my coping mechanism is disassocation/escapism. Feels like having my skin torn off having to face my anxious thoughts.

Do you exercise? I have recently done couch to 5k and it's been life changing. I no longer want to eat crap all the time because I want to feel good for exercise.

What's your diet like? I've found less carbs and more protein help me keep off hunger. It really has worked for me, but they say it takes 12 weeks to break a habit.

I was a binge eater, I would scoff a whole box of Jaffa cakes in one sitting. Some strawberries and Greek Yoghurt is far more satisfying.

I weigh every day now too, just to keep an eye on things.

I think you're being quite hard on yourself, I'm bigger than you at 5"5 and 10 stone I think I look great. I do have more weight to lose, but I'm sure with some exercise and tweaks to your diet you'd feel great in no time.

Sorry I forgot to say, I suffer with anxiety too, the exercise has helped a lot.